My Triggers

.....all of my life CDing was an impulse, nothing joyful or happy.  It was never at all satisfying.  I hated it and I hated myself when I succumbed.  It was never, ever complete.  It could be simply wearing a bra.  It might have been getting completely dressed, covered with my then voluminous body hair, and dressed only from the neck down.  I looked ridiculous and felt the same.  Shame and guilt, always. 






Kandi discusses the triggers that have led to her crossdressing episodes over the years, the feelings afterwords, and her eventual acceptance.  I'm sure many will relate.